I woke up in the hospital on July 18, 2022. I think it was the 18th. 🤔 Still fuzzy on my rescue. But I do remember that I tried to kill myself.
Obviously, it wasn’t my time to go because I’m still here and I just want to share that suicide is not an option. It’s a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Today, I just wanted to tell anyone reading this that it’s okay to admit and share that you tried to kill yourself. That’s the first step on your new life. Be real. Someone needs to know.
Dear First Mate V,
You did not want to live without Kabtn Khawaga when he destroyed your world and left you without a backward glance. He physically, verbally, mentally and emotionally abused you, but it was his infidelity that broke you and you finally divorced him. He continues to mentally, emotionally and financially abuse you for what he perceives as your rejection of him. Kabtn wanted his Kate and Edith too. What he’s doing to you is called Coercive Control.
It is time for you to have a good life for yourself again. The best gift you could ever give me is yourself and your illustrations of stories I’m writing about your life. I admire you for your devoted and selfless care of my brain injured sister. You two were abandoned and neglected by Kabtn. Left without financial support, homeless, and zero emotional support from Kabtn and his merry band of fraudsters.
Sadness, anger, hurt. I felt these emotions and more when you told me you tried to kill yourself; not to hurt anyone, but to stop hurting. It felt like you wanted to abandon us too. I did not run away from you, our Mama/Momma. I ran away from V. Now I understand so much more. Please forgive me. I forgive you.
Fire/Water
Mother/Daughter
Elements in relation
Daughter’s water douses
Mother’s flame
Mother’s fire
Boils daughter’s water
Khawaga Kid 